This is what was on my mind at 2:00 this morning.
I didn’t go to Journalism school. I’ve never worked in television. I did work at a newspaper once, though…in Accounting.
I’ve been helping with research and writing for a TV show concept and I’m 100% completely and hopelessly out of my depth.
Like a lot of people, I suffer from a pretty serious case of imposter syndrome. I know I’m not a complete moron but I also know that I swim in a relatively small pond. This project is out of my league in a major way and every word I write proves I don’t belong anywhere near it. I actually wonder what it takes for people to feel like they deserve their success. Surely there are people who aren’t complete narcissists who have a healthy sense of their accomplishments, right?
The concept has a shit ton of potential. I would watch it on purpose even if I didn’t know anyone involved with it. The last thing in the world I want is for the pitch to come off as an amateurish effort because one of the people drafting it is…well…a fucking amateur.
So I’m writing this in the middle of the night rather than getting the sleep I so desperately need or working on editing the show document.
So here’s the thing. I don’t know if it’s even a pitch or a treatment or birdcage liner because this isn’t my industry. I’m so old I still fight the double space at the end of each sentence. Like, I actually remember true carbon copies. It seems like an odd time to shake the Etch A Sketch but here we are. Today is another day and as soon as this is published, I’ll get back to it…whatever IT is.
You have always been amazing…keep chasing this vision…never, ever give up!!! I look forward to seeing where you will be..
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Thanks Jeff! We’re still plugging away…